Day 42: Red Violet

I spent most of the evening cutting out magazine pictures, because I am starting a monthly Women's Art Group, and our first meeting is this coming Saturday.  I am very excited about this group.  It will be an evening of art, wine, food and friends.  I have been feeling isolated and alone, and looking for a new way to connect  with friends.  I am hoping this will provide a new experience for most of us to build relationships and take it to another level.

 I figured that I would have them start with collage because that is less threatening than drawing.  The reason I mention this is because this drawing is inspired by a large picture of lips that I cut out of a magazine.  Tonight I am drawn to that image for some reason, so I chose a red color that would be fitting.

I am trying to be very aware of what I eat these days.  Conscious eating.  Making better, healthier choices.  Possibly the reason I was drawn to the mouth image tonight.  Also, this image is very sexual and sensual.  I guess that's where my head is at right now.  It also looks like it is waiting or wanting something - the mouth seems anxious.  I guess that is where I am ....  Waiting and wanting.

As I was scanning the drawing into the computer, I realized that the very first drawing that I did in this series was "Red Violet".  Oops.  I must have taken a crayon from another box in the beginning.  But the weird thing is that today's "Red Violet" is a different color than January 23rd's Red Violet.  It's quite confuzzaling (that is daughter's word).  I am now wondering if January's color was actually "Violet Red" as opposed to "Red Violet".

Day 32: Apricot

I have to say that I am getting really tired of drawing with crayons.  They are pretty limiting.  I am trying to be creative, but it is hard.  I just want to draw with ink or paint or anything else... This is what it's like to be on a truly restrictive diet.  After 32 days, I just want to eat different food!

This started out as a tree and turned into an octopus looking "thang". The lighter crayons are really waxy, and harder to get a color variation.  I had so much fun melting the green crayon yesterday, that I got out the lighter again, and just let it go wild.  I even brunt the paper in a few places (I don't think you can see that in the scan).  I am pretty sure that the melted wax is going to start chipping off, so this will be an image that continues to change and morph.

As I look at it now, I feel like I want it to be something that it is not.  Or maybe I want the crayons to do something that they are not made to do.  What does that say about me?  I start off with one intention and get sidetracked into something else?  I want to present as cool, hip and unique, but really I am messy and sloppy.  Plus, nothing is going to stay the same forever.  I believe these last few drawings have really been speaking to my own feelings of getting older and not being able to pull off "young" anymore.

Also, this past week I have been trying to put together a Women's Art Group, and I am getting frustrated.  I believe people are interested, but everyone is so busy and/or commitment phobic that they will not settle on a date to meet.  I just want to create an opportunity to be social, creative and interactive with some really special women. (and maybe use it as an excuse to have a glass of wine on a week day evening).  Just like with the crayons, I am frustrated.